A dream from 2018

4 February 2018 - journal entry

Last night I had a dream. It was evening, my toddler son was playing, and the sky was clear. I took my son and laid a blanket down looking up into the heavens. Half the sky was blocked by the lights of men, which also washed out the clarity of the remaining visible stars. I covered those lights up, focused, and the stars became clear to see.

After some searching, I was shown the part of the sky, and a point therein, where God was. A sensation unlike what I have felt before overcame me, and a rushing noise as a mighty wind filled my ears. I came to realize this was a spiritual force to bring me to where God was. I consented, and was on my way. It felt like no physical force was carrying me, I was in "free fall" upwards, and as the earth receded below I became scared that whatever carried me up would drop me. In an instant, I returned to where I had been laying, gazing up at the stars, which were now dimmer to see.

I focused on the point I knew where God was, and prayed for another opportunity, confessing my fear in prayer. I was told I did not yet fully put my trust in the Lord, my faith in Him, or rely on Him. I confessed in agreement this weakness, and asked to try again. The feeling returned, the rushing filled my ears, and I was brought up above the earth, shown a portion of it, a point therein, and brought down to it. I wondered why I was returning to the earth and was told I was to be shown something for my learning. 

Two agents faced down eight or so criminals. The criminals were hardened, mean, violent. They would not submit. A gunfight ensued, and using great skill, the agents violently killed the criminals, the last one alive was ruthlessly executed by them. I returned to where I lay, looking up at the stars.

I asked the meaning of this. The earth has become exceedingly violent, and even those who fight for good, or strive to be good, or develop virtues in the war against evil are now succumbing to a lower standard and adopt the ways of evil. This brutal cycle is spiraling humanity downwards and even those who desire to fight for just causes have their hearts turning cold. 

I gazed into the heavens again, the sound came, and I was brought to Paradise. There was peace and understanding, no ill will or malice. With such a feeling, no temptation to do evil existed. It was nice to rest. I asked the man there how I was progressing and he told me some things.

Psalm 94

O God, shine forth!